Only you...

السلام عليكم...

هذه المرة الأولى إلي أشارك فيها في هذا المنتدى منذ أكثر من سنة على ما أذكر...

كتبت خاطرة "إذا كان من الممكن أن تطلقوا عليها هذا الاسم" قريب"وهي عادة قليل ما أفعلها" ولكن المشكلة إنها باللغة الانجليزية وبحطها لأني حبيت أشاركها معكم...

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"So close no matter how far" it's the opening of one of Metallica’s songs to be specific it's Nothing Else Matters...

well for me now Nothing Else Matters coz she is so close no matter how far, or like what another band said "Sometimes I wonder you're so close but you're so far?" well it happened with me, she is across the ocean but at the same time I don't miss her coz she is always with me...

I didn't know before what's the meaning of the word I LOVE YOU? and I didn't believe on it in the 1st place, and she was like a sweet dream that impossible to reach to me, but when she said it she gave to my life another aspect, always I've been depressed coz of the pressure of coz I couldn't reach her or coz of my family and there endless problems, but when she said I Love You, my life changed, the impossible dream now is reachable, the pressure now is greater but sweeter, the family issues is now solvable, now she is my love, my motive, my world, no she is my life. My god she don't know how I love her, I believe that we made for each other and I don't think that we may actually break up or something, so I'm thinking about a possibility that she may be gone forever, when I think about it I can't stand it and I start crying like a baby "yeah I cry and I'm not ashamed of it".

I don't know why every time she say I Love You I feel like it's the 1st? or even the word 7abibbi and my god how I hate this word but somehow now in every conversation we had I'm waiting for the word the I heat the most "7abibbi", she is crazy about me and this is a good thing, no its a great thing, but what she doesn't know that I'm insane about her I can't do anything that she hates, I remember once I was chatting with her and the 1st time she told me that she Loves me the song don't speak came up RANDOMLLY from like 13000 songs in my library, so I felt like I'm about to die, my heart was hurting me like hell but a sweet pain, my god how great that moment was.

I don't know if all of this because she is on 1st and true love? or she is the only thing that I wanted in my life? but I know one thing for sure she turned my black life into another life, into "if we can say" Pink life.

if this is just a dream then I want to be held on it forever, and if it's a real I wish you were here honey so I could see your face...

If You Could Only Know, How Much I Love you...

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