Once upon a saddened moon I was born
I wasn't the first nor the last
but
Father said I was so quiet and when I was born
I felt good, I thought it was because I was such a good girl even when I was born I didn't make mother feel bad
and then she'll treasure me the most
but
something started whispering to me
" you're unimportant, maybe your coming to this world isn't that noticeable either"
the sound comes from a very old closet, it's very scary so I never get near it..
so I chose to ignore the voice
I kept being a good girl at home and in school, sometimes I feel a very strange thing is watching me when I'm out of school..
I get a very cold feeling.. scary too
the leaves are falling...
I found my mom crying in her room, I stood in front of her and she didn't notice me
I tried comforting her but she doesn't seem to notice.. I touch her hands but she doesn't respond..
the words of the voice echoes again.. and again..
why am I being ignored by my own mother..?
Father enters the room without noticing anything strange, picks up his wallet and goes out again..
"undesirable child of darkness and sin, open thy box of unyielding secrets"
the voice echoes yet again..
and I think why is mother ignoring me ever since I've seen the light
"I'm sorry mother, I just wanted to make you feel better"
she doesn't recognize any other presence in the room, so I left..
back to my room, in front of the old closet...
its doors are trembling with every step I take,,
I open it.. and a bright flash of light Illuminates the room..
and a picture appears that has my mother in it laughing with another man..
another picture appears for her dying on the hospital's with tears in her eyes..
father appears beside her with a grim look on his face...
mother is dead?
it can't be... this is a lie
the voice comes to life again
"by now you must have known the truth of your existence, I assure you.. your father knows but he doesn't show his resentment to you..
even though he knows you're innocent he doesn't feel that
"fatherly" towards you
you poor bastard child,... so undesirable.. so sad
everything disappears including the closet..
and I feel like crying, I feel extremely depressed
but at least now I know why am I being ignored and left behind
and it hurts even more...